leş

ölü hayvan.

vatana ihanet edenin ölüsü

türk silahlı kuvvetleri mensupları tarafından kendi aralarında ölü ele geçirilen teröristler için kullandıkları kelime.

dilime pelesenk olmuş bir sözcük. istesem de istemesem de kötü bir olay olduğunda otomatik olarak ağzımdan çıkıyor bu kelime. ne leş bir durum değil mi sözlük?

today the day you are dead. i dont know who hit to you. or i dont know when did it exactly happen. you made me feel just like i lost my dearest friend again. i could smell your dead body when i was turning back home at night. but to me, it wasnt smelling bad. i liked it. i liked the way it made you. i liked it because how its yours. nobody will care about you. people will forget. but i will remember you. im sorry, i couldnt touch to you because im afraid of infection and stuff. you smell so well. i hope you are also in a good place right now. i am still in the affect of your smell. rest well. --io and you, cat...





i am afraid of posting the cat. i might get punished... but know that i love you. s/he is right next to that road. a bit far away... <3

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wake up, work, sleep, nothing in return. repeat.

making toast, just like nothing will go wrong.
crossing the road with cycle, something lying.
my eyes dont accept, i take a step closer.
i lean... i see... i dont accept. touch with my toe.
no move. i see. i get closer and closer.
but nothing changes. its already dead.

does it matter? its how i may also die anyway.
what matters? in the end thats how we forgotten anyway.
why'd matter? we are nothing more than a crumb anyway.
when'll it end? though everything will eventually.

way back home, still seeing it
going through meeting him.

its dark, i head back home.
barely seeing lying on road.
but its smell... is more observable than anything else.

smells sweet. and a bit rotten(?)
feels sad. as same as her.
cant forget, i'll remember.
at least. for now.

rest well, you both.
rest well, you all.
i hope you do.
may i come with you?