öz farkındalık

bireyin kendi yapısı, davranışları ve kendisini diğer insanlardan ayıran özelliklerine dair gözlemler yaparak bunları olabildiğince objektif bir şekilde analiz etmesiyle ortaya çıkan benlik algısıdır.

farkına varırsak kendimizin o zaman geri ne kalır dünya için.

kendinin farkında olmak potansiyelerini bilmek bu potansiyel doğrultusunda kendini geliştirmenin anahtar noktasıdır

çabalıyorum, o iş bende merak etmeyin

its pointless to face all the pain in this world and fool yourself with momentary good things. we are living in a dystopia and it doesnt seem like it will change. so ending it at this point doesnt seem pointless. and who knows, maybe the death is good. maybe i will see you there again. or just "disappear". my presence is a curse to myself. my awareness hurts me. my head hurts. my chest hurts. im trembling. i will probably smile or have a slight happiness if i realise somebody is going to kill me, and of course with some fear. some of my friends left already. and i was the one that talking about ending it, how funny. maybe they are cheering or at least "disappeared" thats also something. on older times it could seem pretty appealing. but now... people trying to find a way to expand human life expectancy or even make them immortal. and at this point im in dilemma. while being this unstable, but also having these oppurtunities(?), does it worth keep suffering? i once wished to be like a normal person instead of having stress every day. i had it, i didnt like it. i felt like i wasnt myself. now i feel like everything is wrong. i lost my way. nobody's lifes matter, mine either. i could just make a future for myself. or achieve for pure happiness somehow. maybe fall in love, even though i can no longer have those hope-giving feelings compared to when i was younger. then, what to do? i dont know. maybe i should've never existed.